The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
‘Cause I can’t say no, no, I can’t say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes won’t close
And I can’t say no, I can’t say no
I tried to look around, and my head wouldn’t move. And I kept moving my arm… but my arm wouldn’t f**king move […] and I did what your brain tells your leg to do but that shit did not move. So I was like… shit this is f**ked. I tried to scream “Mom” [and I couldn’t scream]. It was the scariest shit in my life. Also, I didn’t know what sleep paralysis was, so I was like “I’m dying, this is it bro, I’m gone, bye”. I didn’t even get to say goodbye to all the people I love.
I’m sure somebody’s gonna be like, ‘oh, it’s your brain doing this,’ but, like, you cannot give me a good explanation. I do not understand. Dreams are a really intense part of my life. I’ll go through a month where I’ll have the same nightmare every single night—a dream that’s so bad that the whole day is off, or a dream that’s so good that none of it’s true.